So I'll keep this short cuz its almost chow time, but I promise I'll revisit this.

Today at work I got lambasted on no less than two different topics that were deeper than superficial. One was politics, one was religion. (Surprise surprise right?)

So my question is this. Why on (insert diety)'s earth do people even bring up deep conversations at work if they insist on getting pissed the second you disagree with them?

I seriously wish people would make up their mind. Either bring up the tough stuff, or let people work and keep spouting the how was your weekend and howabout the weather crap...Seriously... :P I'm there to work. People keep suckering me into deep conversations then insulting me for getting too serious or whatever. ARgh!!!

Nobody's ever going to agree on this crap, cuz nobody knows the real answer... so why even bring it up? I'll even tell you all what the two things were..

#1 A Bhuddist Monk told me 'god bless you' today over messenger completely at random. And a Christian dude who I figured would disagree, said any religion can say that whenever they want and its completely neutral... But that it isn't ok to say 'God D*** You'...

#2 (My personal least favorite thing to hear anywhere) USA is in Iraq for the oil...

Thoughts? Notice I didn't really put my opinion on there... cuz it doesn't realy matter, cuz anything short of flat out agreeing with them and not dragging it on would have been met with all kinds of drama.

Ok gotta go eat chow I'll be back!

Okey I'm back. The point really isn't like, the discussion itself... It's the frustration over people bringing up a controversial topic, suckering you into it, and then making you feel like the jerk.

I know better than to talk about this stuff at work or to people that aren't really good friends yet, but then people at work just pester you to talk about it more and more, and the more you don't react to them, the more they pressure you, and then you respond and pow... they treat you like the jerk.

What's a good way to respond... or how do yall deal with this stuff.. ya know?

You just ignore them? Or simply smile and tell them "I'm sorry but I don't feel like discussing said topic. Let's chat about something else, instead?"

Hmmm...oh and as far as I know, Buddhism doesn't really have a god(as in absolute being). Buddha is more like some central and very important figure in Buddhism but there might be some religious groups who engage in worshipping of some Buddhist deity, though never Buddha. So, said monk could possibly be fake or from some other religion(possibly Asiatic).

Maybe thats what she means by saying, "I can believe whatever I want" all of the time... then saying that when she dies, she could very well be reincarnated into a rock, frog or whatever else ....

I definately want to just say something to the likes of, "lets just talk about something else" but then comes along the idea of... how do I remember to say that. That's kind of why I'm talking about it more ya know, to get peoples input, and to just flat out try to remember that I need to just not talk about it. But it leaves a empty hole inside. :(

Buddhism doesn't have reincarnation the way that Hindus have, as far as I learnt anyway. They get to influence someone, pass on something to someone. So maybe this person doesn't really know too much about it either. Not saying I know it 100% either. ;)

I'd be firm with them and just keep saying 'I'd rather talk about something else' you know, if they can't have a sensible discussion. Or just say 'I've got work to do.' or something. Good luck with it. *hugs*

Today they turned on me! I didn't talk to them or go on any walks with them all day cuz I was busy workin cuz my contract is up on 10/31 and so... they turned on me! Those little brats. Stirrin up drama where there isn't any. You know how it is, whenever people get bored, they go find someone to pick on. And the other lady thats there that was bein a brat calmed down, so I guess I'm the next target, woppee!! That's ok. I'm used to being the target ya know?

But yea I've really moved on from both of them. I really want to get extended, but if I do, I want to move away from both of them. We've been a team now for over 4 months... but every time they get bored or aggrivated they tend to forget that other people have feelings. They both kind of manifest it in their own way, but ... and I know this goes for a lot of people, whenever everything is fine, they tout their abilities to be able to make themselves feel as good as they want too, but as soon as things go bad, these two people hit rock bottom faster than you can say, "We need to escelate this defect to Urgent/Critical."

Ermm.. Anyways. I'm always interested in other people's religions and stuff but I have a really hard time trying to understand whenever people only partially believe in something. I've always thought that you need to just pave your own path and find a higher backing that supports what you already believe, not try to conform with something else. So it is confusing when the very same people that sway in the breeze as to whatever is popular at the time, refuse to talk about what it is that they really think, in worry of offending people, but then don't hesitate to bring up the non-offensive parts whenever they see fit. :(

Sorry I'm in a super rambly mood tonight. I haven't slept in two nights because of the neighbor above us is moving in at midnight every night till 3 am. We talked to management and they were supposed to let him know, but we gotta call security on him tonight if he does it again, and then he's probably going to get kicked out. He's only been here for 3 nights. We've been here for almost 3 years. It just keeps getting worse.

These are luxury apartments and they let horrible people move in here that can afford rent for 2-3 months and its just total misery. But! Our new place is almost set up. We can't wait to move in. We have about half of our stuff moved. Moving is so exhausting. :(

I really hope I get some sleep tonight. Work is a lot better now. I just listen to my XM all day. I think if I ignore my co-workers long enough they'll forget about me and turn on each other. I'm trying to 'connect' with some of the people I'm supporting, in hopes that if I can connect with all of them one final time in this last month, that they'll bring me along for the next few years. A steady job will be so nice, and a lot of the people I support are so nice, just the pool that I'm in right now has gotten so stale because I think thats what happens when people run out of work to do, and aren't busy anymore. They just start eating each other. :( Plus its almost to the end of the contract.

Ugh. So much drama. :( Ok sorry! I might have to go play my new Zelda DS game now. Just game out today woot woot! Talk to yall later! Sorry for my rambling. :( It just helps me to write it all down... It also helps me remember, ya know, and dump the stress and stuff. :( Sorry! This's like. It seems like the place I can come too when I keep feeling really bad about stuffs. :(

Ok, seriously going to stop typing in this thread for the night!

ttyl
-tbowl

A lot of times, I get so upset about writing these and so self-conscious I'll come back and delete them in hopes nobody read them. :( Waaaah... :( :( I had a better day today though, but I'm seriously exhausted. :( I hope everyone else had a good day today...

Don't worry about it and I hope things are going better. I had some people up last night or I would have replied more quickly. :(

I'm sure things will improve, just try not to let them get you down when they start up again. Maybe you could slip off to the loo when that sort of thing starts next time just to be away for a minute or two might help.

It's hard to get the hang of being assertive with people. But I do believe they've no right to make you feel bad and that if you told them you don't want any part of their downward spiral they've leave you alone.

Anyways, hope you have a better day today and there will be a new page up tomorrow for you to enjoy. And have fun with Zelda! :D